sometimes i wonder if anyone even really reads this thing anymore.... i guess xangas really not all that popular anymore now is it? myspace is now the new big thing... i too have found myself forgetting about xanga and just posting blogs on my myspace... but then again, i don't really post that many blogs on myspace anymore either... but i also haven't really been talking to a lot of people from back home anyways.. b/c it seems like most of them have forgotten me now that i am married and moved away from VA... kinda sucks... some of the people i thought were my best friends i now barely talk to...
and sometimes it would be really nice and helpful to be able to talk to someone i don't see everyday... not that i don't like talking to chris... i guess all the times that i thought i like talking to guys more than girls, i never really realized that i still do need some time to talk to girls... b/c they understand the things that i am going through better... i'm not really sure where this entry is going.. but don't worry i'm not going to put myself completely out there and tell the world all my problems. b/c i'm sorry i'm not like everyone else that wants everyone to know everything thats going on in my life... but i will say that i have been playing video games, so i feel that i can now say that i truly do not understand how people can just play video games all day, and say that they don't need actual human contact... when chris is at work, i watch t.v, clean and play some video games... but i would rather be out doing REAL stuff, instead of starring at a screen all day... or the sink... (have i mentioned that i hate cleaning)... but i guess there are people out there that aren't really that good at making friends in person and they feel that they need that protective screen so they can "be themselves.." but are they really being themselves? or is it their computer selves... and their real selves are just shy??? if anyone actually understood that conrats.. i'm not ever going to bother rereading it b/c i don't think I would understand it... so whatever, i'm just typing to get stuff out of my head.. and i'm praying that it will actually help me... chris and i are going to tear a car engine apart on saturday... that should be interesting... and sunday we are going to go to the church that my sister and brother in law have been going to...
i have a feeling that is going to be weird for me... b/c pretty much every church that i have gone to (on a regular basis, not just visiting with friends) has been a non instrumental church of Christ... and this church, is similar to a church of chris, but it has instruments... now chris should feel right at home, since he doesn't think its a church unless it has a least an organ... we shall see what happens on sunday... while i'm ranting.. and just typing... have i mentioned that i hate chris's work schedule.... he works from 3pm.. till about midnight... so that means that he sleeps till about 9 or 10... leaving him and i only a few hours of time that we can actually spend together, then he has to shower, shave, iron his uniform and everything like that.. and leave at 2:30... and when he comes home at night, he plays video games, (like he is now) until who knows when... sometimes until 2 or 3.. and oaks, the guy that is living with us, right now he works from midnight till 7 am.. so that means the only time chris and i actually have ALONE... is mostly when we are sleeping... it SUCKS... blah.. i think i have regurgitated enough of my thoughts for tonight | 
